Introducing to the real 'I' (Extract)

This Subud latihan is necessary so that humans can receive awareness of their inner self after death, after leaving behind the conditions that we need for our life in this world. Also, due to the development of our soul, we human beings can receive a bonus that is a very great blessing for us, for we become good and healthy, and we become really calm and peaceful. As a result of the soul’s development, apart from its effects on our inner being, apart from what we need for our life after death, even hear in this world, albeit temporarily, it is willed by God that we become really good and happy, and healthy as they say gezond en fris [Dutch: healthy and fresh].

This being so, it can be said that the worship of God. Which is generally referred to as the province of religion, is truly a blessing for humans. This is why religion is said to give well-being and peace of mind. Islam is said to give peace of mind and happiness.

This is really true if people receive awareness in the true sense of the word. But because people always use their thinking to know these matters, they cannot receive the truth. On the contrary, they make difficulties for their own brain, heart and feelings. So you should feel what you receive in the latihan and let it develop. Let it work. But do not let your thinking and heart get mixed up in it. By not involving your thinking and your heart, you allow the development of the soul to go more easily and smoothly.

One day - and Bapak has experienced all this himself - you will suddenly understand, you will suddenly become aware. That is really how it is. We are made as instruments and tools of God. If we can really stand still in our true state, as they say op de plaats rust [Dutch: stand easy - lit, rest where you are], we will be able to sense and feel who is moving us around, who is making us move. If we do not ‘stand easy’ we will always be obstructed by our thinking. Even though we may be moved here and there, touched by the true life force that always envelops the human self, both inside and outside, we will be unable to receive it as long as we live.

So if one professes to surrender, with an insha-llah [Arab: if God wills] and a masha-llah [Arab: what God wills], and carries out one’s worship, but all of it based on ordinary understanding, then one cannot feel and receive who is moving my speaking, my smelling, my seeing and even the feeling of my heart and the imagination and thinking of my brain.

So, brothers and sisters, this latihan is something for you. In the beginning you are introduced to the development of your human soul, you are introduced to your real selves, or Bapak can say, ‘I’ am introduced to my real ‘I’. When you say ‘I’, do not let the ‘I’ be only your lips, or only your heart. Let it be the real ‘I’. This can be tested, it can be received and experienced at any time in the latihan, once the latihan is good. What is the difference between ‘I’ and the real ‘I’? In other words. What is the difference between the ‘I’ that is spoken by the heart and the ‘I’ that is spoken by the real self? You can test this, so that it becomes not only something on your lips, but real.